I can only write what I know and feel and lately I have felt that my writing has not been up to par. There are times in my life where the words just rush. I can scarcely write or type fast enough to keep up with the flow. Now is not one of those times.
I have been writing a lot lately about not being able to pour from and empty cup because that is how I am feeling. I am tired. Very tired. I know it will pass and I know it is valid. I have had one crazy year. Do not misunderstand me. I love my life. I still feel blessed. But the emotions of the last year are catching up to me and I need something. Time and sleep come to mind but that is not really the answer. Coffee of course is both helpful and draining. The point is that I don’t really know what I need.
I have lots of projects up in the air and I value all of them. Some are work and some are family and some are new endeavors that are fun and challenging. All of them bring me joy. all are important, and yet I am still tired. It is something I will think on, pray on, and work on. There is no punch line or grand revile. Nothing is changing I am just sharing with you how I feel.