in the last post I talked about telling the God and Goddess how you found them and so I thought I would tell you how I found them. I figured out I was a witch about 20 years ago. But like a lot of people I met I think I was really one all my life. I always talked to the universe. I felt very close to nature and was very environmentally aware even as a child. Much of that has to do with my mother and of course we live in California which was a little ahead of the curve as far as saving the planet. I didn’t see the Earth as a possession or as something that must be tamed but rather as something that took care of us (providing food etc) and so we should take care of it. My mother was and is an avid gardener so being around plants was always kind of a spiritual experience for me. I could sit with them and just be. I felt peace among them. My mother again was and is an intellectual and a feminist. So God as a concept was ok but it had to fit into my world views which means God could not be male. Or rather not just male. Yin and Yang made sense to me and so a God that was both female and male, or neither female and male spoke to me. That is what I felt.
On the cusp of adolescents I had a rather serious illness and ended up having a lot of my time to myself to think and feel and work through emotions. It was about this time that my mother suggested that I look into my spiritual side more. I began setting up things as I felt them and I began to search out books about all kinds of spiritual traditions. One week at the Library I found Power of the Witch by Laurie Cabot. There was me, or so much of my beliefs written down! You can imagine what a shock that was. Here I was thinking I was inventing something for me, and other people had already felt it and were doing it. It was also a wonderful experience because now I had a name to what I was doing and quickly read a ton more books. At 13 I did the self initiation ritual in Scott Cunningham’s Wicca a guide for the solitary practitioner.
Since then I have sometimes worked with others and sometimes by myself. At this point in my life I find my self in a coven of solitaires and a teacher of my Wiccan path. This was not planned or intentional but here I am and I love it. I lead a very blessed and happy life with those I love around me. I thank the God and Goddess for helping me through the rough seas of life and filling my sails with blessings on the calm ones.
Since there is more to every Witch then being a witch a few other notes about me. I am currently a stay at home mom with a wonderful child and a very loving husband. My husband is not a Witch nor does he have any desire to be one. He was (as he says) “bible thumbed” as a child and now wants nothing to do with any sort of religion. He is happy to let me do my thing and walk my path and I am happy to let him walk his. Our child is certainly exposed to Wicca. How could she not be with her mother and grandmother being witches and her mother teaching at the dinning room table? But her path is hers to choose.