So I’m late. oh well better late than never
1. Reflection Time another year has come and gone, looking back what have you learned?
I actually find it fitting that I have not posted on this yet. Last weekend we had our Imbolc ritual and fire. Pretty much all our Sabbats have fires and most of our Moons too. So when I think of our circle I always think of our fire. This past fire was very much a cleansing fire as it was big and hot and had some lovely herbs in it. The point is that at this circle I felt like I had entered the new year. I had not been feeling that way in January but I am feeling it now.
As part of our ceremony there was a guided meditation where we saw Brigid at a crossroad to pick our path. Or rather she was going to help guide us to the path. So of course there she was, standing in glory at the cross roads with her hands on her hips and looking down at me. She told me it doesn’t matter what path I tell you to go on your going to do what you want so you might as well just choose yourself. We had a conversation. The short of it was I promised to listen to Her more and not create obstacles for myself. Now Thalassa has written a lovely post on oaths today. And believe you me I will not be breaking my Oath that I made to Her, I would not dream of it!
So this is what I have come to learn this last year. I have path and scary as it is, it is my path and I best be following it. I need to live in the now because we really honestly have no idea what the next day or twist will hold. I need to live in this body, because this body is a vessel for myself and needs to be cared for. I am a grown up. This was a rather harsh realization, I have never really felt grown up but now I am responsible for so much and so many that I am indeed a grown up. With that I need to take more responsibility for myself. No more putting things off and feeling like I can get away with it.
I have learned that people are both very interested in the things I am interested in as well as not interested at all. I am always surprised which of my posts are most liked, as I also like some more than others. I have also learned that I can be a leader. This was again a hard one as I prefer sometimes to be in the background. However part of my oath is that I need to take my gifts and act in accordance with them. I am guessing this will be one of my biggest challenges for the coming year. I learned that my life is better with art in it and that to feel peace I need to be creating something. This I think will help me most in the coming year.
You GO!
When we are kids, we walk around being annoyed with how everyone treats like a kid when we know we are really more grown than they realize. As adults I think we often continue to walk around like that! This sneaking suspicion that we are each a kid and need to prove that we can handle things could be replaced with the surety that whatever we need we will be able to provide it for our self. After all, doesn’t everyone else turn to us for providence?
Sometimes I can carry that feeling around with me, other times, I’m waiting for permission to live.